in thousands of agonies, i exist

29092025, monday

i dont know who i am anymore.
i turned myself into grief. i let it consume me; let it eat me whole. now it feels like grief is all i am. loss. absence.
i lost my spark. no matter how many good things happen, my life still feels hopeless. all i seem to know how to do is cry. i cant do anything. i am trapped inside this feeling, inside myself.
(i wish for a miracle, if only those existed.)
i want to run away from who i am now. i cant bear my feelings anymore. i really cant.

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