07022026, saturday
i keep seeing you in my dreams.
i am tired.
i dont want to think about you anymore, but i do.
i dont want to forgive you after all you've said, but i do. i would always forgive you.
but you would never forgive me. i dont ever even cross your mind. i wish you would tell me how you did it: got over us so fast. i am still trying to.
something i was writing last year for your birthday, never sent and now i regret it.
"we spent hours and hours talking on the day we met, about everything and anything. i can still picture 13 year old me walking around the house, face buried on my phone smiling from ear to ear. we just clicked. in less than a week, you told me you loved me and i said it back, because loving you was easy just like that."
it ended like: "a lifetime of being your friend is not enough, i want to spend all my other lives with you."
and now i get to spend my whole life missing you.